Tonglen Breath

Tonglen

 

Sink deep.....deeper still

Descend deep.....deeper still

 

Descend, to ascend .........they say

 

Breath--only breath

Thoughts quiet,

Body, a shell

 

Lose yourself, to find your Self....... they say

knowing, a knowing that has always been, but was never aware

Is now awake, FULLY AWAKE! 

It's bliss! I am finally awake and it is ....

Euphoric Bliss!

 

Wait......can't stop here 

What?.....can't stop here? 

Deeper still? Can it be......deeper still?

 

Breath.....only breath

This time......Hesitant breath

 

Fear, confusion, emptiness, loneliness 

Cold, painful cold.....evil.....

Suffocating evil.

Hideous evil.

Slithery, slippery frightening evil

 

It's not easy.....this mission

Sludge and bile, cold, and full of fear

Put in one foot, then both feet

Wade in it....swim in it. 

Let it fill you....drown in it. 

 

They're here. 

Lost souls, forgotten souls, lonely souls.....found

Untold stories.......painful stories.

Bloody, violent stories.

Stories of hatred and fear 

Stories of abandonment and sadness........devastating despair and destruction

These stories .......finally told.

These stories .........finally heard.

 

Breath.....only breath

Lonely breath

Painful breath

Sorrowful breath 

Breath full of shame 

Breath full of fear

Breath filled with ALL misery

Take long breaths.......breath that chokes you

Breath that contaminates every cell of you

Let it fill you

Smolder and burn you

 

Cry, and shudder, gasp, and writhe 

Sweat and shiver

Resist, then give in

Question, then trust

 

Breathe

Take it from them, this burden

just breathe it all in

 

Finally.......Breathe out, at long last breathe out.

Breathe out a connection that can't be broken

Breathe out an understanding that sees past their limitations

Breathe out acceptance that embraces their mistakes

Breathe out a love without bounds 

Give breath to those that have forgotten how to breathe

Breathe for them.

Breathe with them.

Breathe into them.

Let go.....just breathe into them.

 

The pain of the abandoned....shared

The suffering of the forgotten....shared.

Love for those that thought they were unlovable .....given and received 

And a knowing....a knowing that always was but was never aware, and felt never deserved

Feel the release. 

Experience their release

and bliss--finally bliss

Not the bliss of one for one......but the bliss of shared connection, the bliss of shared freedom, the bliss of love for all

It was breathed into them

And is now sent out as ripples FROM one, but through the collective whole. 

 

Descend, to ascend.....it's true

 

Lose yourself, to find your Self....

 

It's true

 

© Charisse Lyons